the ppt presentation was screwed up! i was extremely affected by this cuz i really spent so many late nights and effort on it. when the screen hanged, my worst nightmare seemed to come true. the laptop was spoilt by some hardware problem. at that worst point of my life, i just want to disappear from the face of the earth. so damn embarrassing lar. the Director, Jessie, Amy and Li Ching were all present. after that failed presentation, we carried on with our programme. as we do not have any songs and lyrcis for our sing along session, we had to just have to sing on the spot with no backgrd music at all. it was really a test of our 'thick-skinness'. yupp. so we just sang 'if we can hold on together' despite my cranky, pitchy voice.

but towards the end of the song, i just couldnt contain my tears. i had to leave the room to compose myself. i felt utterly disappointed in everything. being my last project of my term in interact, i really wanted this story to end off with a beautiful note. after drying my tears in the toilet, i wanted to join back the rest.

but my JIE came towards me and comforted me. the dam of tears open and shit, i started crying nonstop. dangs! i didnt want to cry. i just cant pretend nothing happened and laugh it off cuz i wanted so so much things to go smoothly and have reassured my JIE that i will make sure nothing happens to her laptop.


luckily, i pulled myself together and finished the whole farewell way after the assigned end time.

thanks to all the help the j2s have given. hope u guys enjoyed the experience at daybreak scc as much as i did.




now im kinda trapped in between deciding to study Sociology or Engineering in University. i've gotten many feedback and opinions from those who studied either of the courses before. but sadly, i seemed more troubled and lost. im really interested in studying Sociology as im more of a human-orientated person. on the other hand, i will not be able to apply what i've studied in my 2 years on that course. those who are in the Arts stream will then have an upper hand on it.

Engineering will be my next choice cuz that's only the other thing im quite interested in and will be able to apply what i have learnt. but the thing is that i not sure if this will be my cup of tea. i know my parents have high hope and i mean really high ones of me studying Engineering. the reason being i can help out my father in his company or maybe take over his company in the future. the idea to be a boss in a company seems really enticing but i still cant imagine myself studying that field for 3 to 4 years.


ultimately, the question is that does interest takes priority over academic abilities?

what if ur interest is in something that u dont have the capability of doing so?

okay. i admit im very lost now. =/

posted by pam @ 12:01 AM